My Fate i was meant to be in....my 1st guy....Jason Ye...
I don't know how to start the words. I'm like stuck on this sentence for 20mins.
My past is not a happy one & neither it is a good one.
I have cried for 3 guys in my life that im serious with.
1st is Jason Ye 2nd is Edwin Chen 3rd is Shawn Yip
All of them jus wanna break me apart & brought me 2 my life now im living in.
One thing in common is that all broke up with me without a reason.
So till now, i do not have any clues or explainations to those reasons for breaking up.
The only reason i can think of, is that im ugly. thats why i guess.
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The legend of my life, i can say it will be Jason Ye Jun Wei... it has been a 100% coincidence till now on how i met him & the processes, it has been like 2yrs & 6mths ago le....I have never in my life know wad is love till i met him, although is just a week, i have nv felt so much affection & passion for a person.... My story starts like this...........
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I met him thru mirc, at that time, i did not go to irc for almost 4 mths & wanting to delete it very soon. Out of a sudden, my fren ask me to help to unblock him in a channel as i know the operator there. So i jus went in & help. Then there is this guy, with a nick call mitsuevo, msg me. We had a casual & typical chat like anyone else does. It happen that i had a fight picked up in a channel called #friendzzz for stupid reasons...so a lame quarreling session took place. So to do something silly, i ask mitsuevo for help. hahaha that was like total crap... In that channel, the ppl were scolding with a mouthful of vulgar languages, but mitsuevo came in with a civilise manner, that was a surprise reaction i get as ppl tend to use vulgar languages. He did not even use a single bad word, tat was a special fellow i tot at that time. So we continued to chat & we did exchange hp numbers.
Maybe u will feel tat this is nothing special, by reading on, u will find tat it is fate that brought me to where im now..
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We chat on the phone like around once & sms quite a number in a week for abt a month. Till one day, i got to meet him by coincidence...i happen to be in an outing with my classmate & a relief teacher of ours, then i recieved a picture message, it is a picture of a love amulet, which i kept till now.... to that time, it is nothing special, to be polite, of coz everyone will send back a reply for a thank you or wadever rite? So i reply by saying a thank you & casually asking him where is he chilling out at the moment, he replied by saying that he is at the Mos Burger at Parco Bugis. Now, guess where im.....
i m jus less then a 100m away from him..... im at the somewhere near the escalator to the underground arcade... thats how near we are.... so i went & meet him. He was there with 3 other frens, smoking... he was kinda cool i still remember his hair is quite messy & he is wearing a white razor back & a kaki pants. But he did not say much thing, he was like shy. hehehehehehee i was standing there & like was introducing very briefly...... then his fren did offer me a seat with them, but i claim that i need to go home. So this is how we 1st met.
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Soon, we start to chat more on the more often like 3 to 4 times a week till very soon, he ask me out. He was meeting me at Raffles Place where his mum's salon was there. So i went there at 5pm... he was late...... for like 1 hr..... hahaha
So he was there smoking, he charmed me with his looks... he was wearing a black razor back n jeans, Totally CooL! hahahahahaa the tan muscular arms of his did make a Strong impression of himself to me. He was still shy, he dun really dare to look at me when he tok. Soon he had his younger god sister & one of his buddy to join us. Then we went into his mum's Salon, nothing much to do there, but his mum was like giving me cold shoulders.... i was like dot dot dot OoPs hehehee
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The outing was followed on with funny things. We took Mrt down to Somerset, then we go down to cineleiasure to have dinner at the basement foodcourt. His godsis quickly found a table & pulled Jason's buddy to sit with her, so that i can sit with Jason, tat was like very very paisey hehehe after the dinner le, we went down to The Hereen. i always enter the shopping centre without them as i always forgot tat they are smoking. hahahaha
Then we went to the highest level, he bought a pouch & a shirt, spending a 100 buck or more i guess. i was pretty shock, spending a 100 buck in one go. although now is my turn. hahahaahaa
Then after tat we went to wait for taxi, when the taxi comes i went in 1st, den his godsis pushed Jason all the way in beside me! Den was like so close lor really very close...... make until both of us so pai sey.... den so quiet..... hahahaha
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We dropped at somewhere near Bugis. Then we went into a building, a small billard & pool place. den i play with his god sis.. i have nv touch pool in my entire life, so i dun even know to hold the cue. He came over to me.... help me.....
He teach me how my fingers should be placed like..... but my finger keep sliding off......................... den he hold my hand & help me placed my finger correctly...... den he teach me how to hold the cue. And den i practise my shoots...i got a funny shot. I aim the white ball for so long den in the end, i hit the air. hahahaha
When i was playing, i was looking at him too.... the poses he gave when playing snooker with his frens, did mesmerised me... he look so so so gd to me.... i was like OMG....
i have to go home soon, so i went home myself....
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On the way home, he kept popping up into my mind for no reasons.......... it went on for the next 2 weeks....everyday the same..... i can't stand it le..... knowing he is a nice guy, polite, & gentlement, wad more can i ask for?
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We chat quite alot on the phone, he is a good guy, got dumped & played by his ex... he had 8 ex at tat time..... so i think he wounldn't be bad to any extend... he said he is afraid of being hurt....
Till one day im not going to keep to myself anymore, i told him, i like him. & i do not expect him to give me an answer, all i wanna do is jus to tell him i like him & tats it.
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But he replied me that he had some feelings for me... So soon, we are together.... but gd days are not meant to be...
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On our very 1st date..... it is the day tat we need to be separated...
He left me.... without a reason...till now im still wondering why.......
everyday i cried... for 2 mnths...
In class... i day dreamed...
i dreamed....
i cry again....
i cried in a daze....
i dunnoe why i cry...
i jus cry....
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I waited for more den 30 months for him....but wad do i get? Disappointment....
i wanted to forget him...... i make use of one yr to make a deadline for me to give up...but 1yr later, on the very day we broke up, he appear out of no where, where i have lost all his contact.....
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And Again he disappoint me all over again....bringing back all my sadness once again....
He left me again.....why again???? i hate it...
i ask my self to give up... but i can't...but i tried very very hard to...
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2 yrs later after we broke up. i saw him again....
On Valentine's Day....
On The Streets At Takashimaya
He was Jus in front of me...
Holding another hand....
Not mine....
Jus 8metres away...
I was facing him...
But i choose to turn away....
I dunnoe how to face him....
Maybe all i want is he to be happy....
So does it matter where im happy anot....
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On September 2004....
i recieve an sms in sch...
is him... again...
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But all ended up in a tragedy again...
I tragedy tat i dun wanna mention again...
it is a disgrace....
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{ Wednesday, December 29, 2004. }
{ 9:00 AM }
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named as. Sylvia Ang
born on. 4th March 1987
mad about. Singin, Shoppin, Lame, Luffin, My Health!
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Via~List.
i want this
~See The World.
~Doing what i truly want.
~More time for my own.
~Having more time for my love ones...
~Earn more money for the future use!
~Get My Car License.
i've got this
~More Forever21. everything of it.
~Get to travel!
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Lounge & Chill, RnB HipHop House
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~Disturbia
~Rush Hour123
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~Tyoko Drift
~2 Fast 2 Furious
~Night@TheMuseum
~28dayslater
~All Comedies
~Scary & Thrilling ones,need a person to watch with me.
~Devil Wears Prada
~Scary Movies
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